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[man] Sara?
Nearly done.
[man] I can't do this anymore.
So use the other toilet, then.
[man] I have to get away for a while.
What?
[man] We both know it.
This isn't working anymore.
I thought I'd go to Malaga with Pete.
So, you're saying you're going on a trip with Pete?
[man] I need to get away and think for a while.
Okay?
[man] Night. I'm going to bed now.
["Sånt Är Livet" by Anita Lindblom playing]
[Sara grunts, sighs]
[Sara] Eliot, time to wake up now, honey.
Daniél?
[Sara grunts]
[gasps softly]
[lively music distorts, echoes]
Daniél?
THANK YOU, I'M SORRY
[chimpanzees cheeping, hooting]
-[voice on TV] The chimpanzee. -[door knocks]
One of humankind's closest relatives that still exists today.
-We have to travel back in time to reach… -[door knocking]
…where humans and chimpanzees split, and evolved into two different species.
Where is he?
-There. -Thanks.
[footsteps retreat]
[voice on TV continues] In the rainforests of Central and West Africa,
this remarkable species thrives.
-Within the dense canopies… -[medic 1] No pulse.
[medic 2] You see that?
[medic 1 sighs] Cold as well.
[medic 2] He's very stiff.
[medic 1] There's livor mortis.
[medic 2] Here too.
-[medic 1] Must've been gone for hours. -[medic 2] Mm… looks that way.
[medic 1] Can you, uh, talk to the relatives?
[medic 2] Yeah, okay.
[doors squeak]
[voice on TV] The forest serves as a vast playground for these agile primates.
Chimpanzees are exceptional climbers…
[bird cawing, tweeting]
[keys clacking]
Hi, Helen.
It's Sara.
I know that I'm calling very early.
It's 'cause…
Daniél, eh…
I've tried to wake him up.
But he won't, Helen…
Yeah.
[melancholy music playing]
[Eliot] Mummy, did you know humans used to be apes?
First the dinosaurs died.
And then, the monkeys turned into cavemen.
I used to be a monkey too.
Can you be a monkey, Mummy?
[Eliot hooting]
[indistinct sport commentator chatting]
[commentary continues]
[dog whimpering]
[dog panting]
Okay. Just one.
One.
[dog whimpering]
No, no more for you.
[woman fusses]
[dog whimpers]
Absolutely no way.
[dog whimpering]
-[mobile phone ringing] -There you go.
[call connects]
-Hello, Dad. -[Dad] Linda, where's my slippers?
-Sorry? -My slippers.
[dog grumbles]
[Dad] I need them.
You have to come.
Can't the care staff help you look for your slippers at all?
[Dad] Ah, fuck no!
-No? -They're crazy.
-Mm-hmm. -Singing "Clap, Clap" like lunatics.
-Come! -Yep.
-[dog whimpers] -I'm coming.
-Good. Good, good. -'Kay.
Yeah. Bye.
[call disconnects]
Oh.
Oh, darling.
There.
-Hi. -[Helen] Hi.
[Doctor] Ivan. Hi. On-call doctor.
-Love. -Mmm.
-Helen. -[sighs]
Daniél's mum.
-Uh… Daniél's father. -Ah.
So…
Uh, so… then I'm here to…
I think that I want to record what you say,
as it can be hard to remember what's been said when you are, uh, in shock.
You see, I often find that this helps, 'cause I'm a psychologist.
[Ivan] Yes, absolutely.
[key clacks]
Uh…
Um…
Uh, yeah…
It's most,
uh, likely that…
[clears throat]
…his heart stopped beating, uh, in his sleep.
[Grandpa sobs]
There are no signs on the body
of a… struggle or… anything like that.
And of course, we will do an autopsy to determine the cause of death,
but it is very likely that he suffered from a heart condition.
I slept on the sofa.
Okay.
[Helen] You slept on the sofa?
Yeah.
I suffer from a bad stomach,
so I sleep on the sofa so that Daniél doesn't wake me.
'Cause I have trouble sleeping if I've been woken up
so that's why I slept on the sofa.
[Ivan] There is absolutely nothing you could have done, Sara.
-Mm. -[Ivan] You must understand that.
[ominous music playing]
[rhythmic music playing]
[Sara inhales deeply]
[door unlocks, opens]
Ah.
[Linda laughs]
-Yeah? -Nice.
-Do you think so? -Yeah.
-Mm-hm? -Indeed.
-Zlatan! -[man] What? What did you say?
Hey! [chuckles]
Hey, my darling.
-[inhales] Hey, my lovely. -Oh, you got a dog.
-[Zlatan barks] -Yeah.
-Hey. -This is Zlatan, my dog.
Ooh, good boy.
[sighs] I have always dreamt of having a dog, you know?
Mm-hmm.
[Linda chuckles] Cute.
Oh, you're a good boy.
-Yeah, they're fun. -Are you a good dog, Zlatan?
Yeah?
-Yeah. -[Linda laughs]
So, um…
I've only got water.
Don't have any ice though.
-[giggles] -Mmm.
[Linda] Here you go.
-Ta. -[Linda sighs]
[sensual music playing]
-Hey. -Oh.
[Linda giggles awkwardly]
[clears throat]
Okay.
[whispers] Oh, yeah.
[clears throat]
Mmm.
Hmm.
[lock clicking]
[door slams]
-[Linda] What you doing here? -You've got a boyfriend?
[clears throat] We're on a break now.
Are we?
[Linda] Yeah, you said we should take a break
so that, um,
"I can just be myself…
in this relationship. I need to be alone for a while,"
you said, so…
[sensual music stops]
Who are you?
Uh, Ludde.
-Ludde? -Ludvig.
-Okay. -[clears throat]
I'm Jasse.
Well, I should go.
What I said to her was
that I couldn't feel what she wanted me to feel.
You know how I always struggle when people can't feel what they want,
when I have inside a need to feel what they want.
Mm.
There have been so many women in my life I couldn't connect to, you know.
Well. [sighs]
Thanks for the water.
[door slams]
[inhales]
Look…
-You feel me. -You shouldn't touch me.
No.
-I'll go. -Mm.
[door slams]
-[Eliot] I'm gonna stab you and kill you! -Oh no! Oh!
Ow, ooh, ooh. Mercy!
[both grunt and groan]
Ooh!
[Eliot] You're dead now, you're dead.
I killed you.
[Helen] I've made an appointment with the priest.
She said that you should think about which hymns you want us to sing.
I think that "Day by Day" and "With Each Passing Moment" are good.
[knife chops]
Have you spoken to Eliot about the funeral?
[sighs]
I said that Daniél's gone away working for a bit.
I can tell him what happened if that's what you want.
I'll do it, but I just don't know what to say to him.
No, but it's fine to wait for a bit before you do.
I'm going to call everyone else now.
[Eliot] No! Come here!
I'm going to stab you in the heart.
[light rock music playing on radio]
[Jasse] Hey.
[Linda] Hey.
You've moved all your stuff back in?
I didn't feel good living with Maja and it didn't work out last time.
What do you mean, "last time"?
Was mainly to give you a little space.
Come.
Maybe we could have talked about it before.
[Jasse] I've missed you.
-My dad rang. -Hmm?
Um, my… uh, sister's husband died.
Hmm.
-Oh, you have a sister? -Uh…
My little sister, Sara. Sure I told you about her.
She stayed with Mum when they divorced and I lived with my dad.
I found some perfect avocados.
Just how you like them.
[inhales] Anyway, so, uh, her husband, well, died unexpectedly.
Oh.
My dad thinks I should go to the funeral, but…
he and Sara don't… [sighs] Well, he can't go.
-So, I don't really know what to do… -[pot clatters]
What is it?
[Jasse] It's just that you haven't asked me how I'm doing.
How are you?
I don't think you should touch me.
Yep.
[dog barking]
[emotional music playing]
[poignant music playing]
[Zlatan barking]
-[Zlatan whimpering] -Shh. Shh.
Come.
[organ playing in distance]
[door opens]
Hello there.
I am so terribly sorry, l am usually never late like this.
-No worries. -Welcome, then. Have a seat.
-Can I… help? -No.
[Sara clears throat]
[sighs]
So, yes. I just want to get a picture of who Daniél was, hm?
-Who he was? -Mm.
Is there anything that you want me to talk about in the funeral?
It can… It could be anything really, big, small.
Well, we got married
after we had Eliot.
Mm.
Um…
But we met when we were in law school and then
we moved out here last year.
Cause Daniél wanted to be close to his parents.
[priest] Mm, I see.
-And for the sake of the kids. -Mm.
It doesn't take very long for people to come by bus to visit.
Only about half an hour, but the problem is that no one comes.
And they probably think that at least she's got fresh air
and a big lawn and her husband to keep her company.
-[priest] Mm. -But then he just disappeared.
-Mm. -And he's gone.
And I think it's despicable… of him.
Mm.
[inhales] And what of your mum and dad? Do you have any siblings?
I've an older sister, but we're not in contact.
Mm.
And your parents?
They're both dead.
[priest] Mm-hmm.
[Eliot humming]
[humming continues]
Huh?
[Sara groans]
[Sara sighs]
What's that?
It's a pig, it's sad.
It's only got one friend and it's just an old, fat raccoon.
-[chuckles softly] I see that. -Mm.
Are you sad too?
Do you miss Daddy?
We can ring him up.
No, we can't ring him anymore.
'Cause he's just like that bird now, you know?
The one that we buried out in the garden.
Is Daddy dead?
[exhales]
Mm-hmm.
So, he won't be home next week?
No.
[Eliot] Mm.
Be a monkey now.
[Eliot hoots]
[hooting]
[Eliot] Louder.
[hooting]
-[Eliot] Much louder. -[hooting]
[sobs]
[hooting]
Louder. [laughs]
[hooting continues]
[Eliot chuckles]
Louder. [laughs]
Louder, mum. Louder!
[hooting] Ah, ah, ah!
Ah!
[door opens, echoes]
[church bells chime]
-Here. Are you-- -[Sara] No.
-[priest] Mm-hmm. -[nose blows]
-[dog barks] -Mummy, look, a dog.
-Not now, Eliot. -Yes!
-[Eliot] Is it your dog? -[Linda] Uh, yeah. It is.
[Zlatan whimpers]
[Eliot] What's its name?
[Linda] What? Uh, Zlatan.
[Eliot] Is it called Satan?
-Uh, Zlatan, yeah. -[Eliot] Satan!
-[Linda] Zlatan! -Satan!
-[grandad] Are you coming, Sara? -[Eliot] Satan!
Eliot, your grandparents are waiting for us.
[Eliot] Mummy, Mummy, did you see how cute it was?
We must go.
-[Eliot] No. -[Sara] Come.
I heard that coffee's at yours.
Mm-hmm.
[solemn piano music playing]
[Helen] Daniél loved chocolate.
I remember a time when I'd bought a piece of chocolate cake.
And I set it down on the kitchen top and, um…
I was pottering around, then I went into the bathroom and, uh…
[Zlatan whimpers]
Bah, bah, bah, bah, bah, bah, bah.
-Hi! -Hey.
[Zlatan barks]
[Eliot giggles]
So…
He likes balls.
-Do you wanna try? -Mm.
Zlatan, come.
[Zlatan barks]
[Eliot giggles]
We can't have a dog 'cause my mummy's allergic.
That's right.
Mm.
My dad's going to be burned.
They'll drive him into a big oven.
Do you want to swing then?
-Yep. -Yeah?
Let's do that.
Did you know your mum loved to swing when she was a little girl?
[solemn piano music playing]
-Hi. -Hi.
[Eliot] Higher.
Higher.
Look at me! Look at me!
I'm flying. I'm flying.
Whoa! Like a dragon!
You've arranged things so nicely today, Sara.
-Oh yeah. Thank you. -[thuds]
[Eliot] Ah!
No, no, no!
-Eliot! Eliot! -[Zlatan barks]
[dramatic music playing]
[Eliot] Ow!
[Sara] I knew it. Come. [grunts]
Oh, there now.
-There. -It hurts.
You gotta hold your head back a bit, baby.
Sorry about Olle.
Eliot.
Eliot. [exhales]
Right.
I didn't know he wasn't holding on, so…
Um…
But he'll be okay, yeah?
His father's just died, so he is not okay.
Mm. Ah.
Oh, I'm sorry.
It's ok
-You take care now. -Oh.
-Bye. -[mourner] Bye.
How'd you hear about Daniél?
From, uh, Helena.
-[Sara] Helen. -[Linda] Helen.
[sighs]
-Ooh, sorry. -It's fine.
-My condolences. You take care. -Yeah.
[Sara] Mm. Thank you.
-[mourner 2] My condolences. -[Sara] Yes, thank you.
Mm.
Uh, It was Helen who called our dad up.
I was just there visiting him at the home for a bit.
-He really wanted to come, but-- -You can go.
Okay.
[solemn piano music playing]
Peter Piper picked A peck of pickled pepper
Peter Piper picked
-[Eliot] Grandpa? -Yeah.
Did you see that dog?
Um, what was his name?
[Eliot] His name was Satan.
Zlatan, yeah
He's a bit yellowy-gold.
[chuckles] Yeah, you're right.
Okay.
Peter Piper picked a peck--
I understand that you haven't really had much contact with her.
Linda.
I had to ring your father.
After all, we are family.
And it's at times like these that you really need your family.
Mm-hmm.
I actually think it'd be a good idea if I moved in here.
You can't do everything yourself with Eliot,
and soon there'll be the little one too.
I'll just take a leave of absence from the clinic
so I can be here with you all the time.
[inhales deeply]
We'll be fine.
[Helen] Sara,
I understand you're very sad.
And I'm sad as well.
We have lost him, both of us.
But I've lost my child.
My son.
I'm gonna go to bed now. Eliot's up early tomorrow, so…
Then I'll call a taxi.
José, I'm calling a taxi.
-Helen? -Mm?
It knows your face, you don't have to smile.
["Är Det Konstigt Att Man Längtar Bort Nån Gång" playing]
[lively music stops]
[residents singing, clapping]
[Linda] I think they were tasty.
-[Dad] Yeah. -Yeah.
Not the ones I usually buy.
You bought' em?
You don't bake 'em yourself?
Have you ever taught me to bake, hm?
Nah.
Oh, shut the hell up will you!
[groans]
Every Monday, every Wednesday,
every fucking Thursday.
Three hours, man.
Clap, clap.
So, I went to Sara's house after the funeral.
I took some photos.
[Lina clears throat]
That's their garden.
That's her son, Eliot.
[laughs]
-[Dad] Are you going to visit her again? -[phone ringing]
Oh.
-Jasse's calling. -No, but… Just let me… Dad.
Surely… You're not still going out with him, are you?
Just give it to me, will you?
Hey.
[Linda] Hi.
-But, Linda, for God's sake. -Look, I can't talk now. I'm at the tube.
-You self-centred fucking man-baby! -Yeah, I'm on the underground.
There's some really weird Finnish bloke screaming.
With the world's smallest cock!
What?
Yeah, he's really unpleasant.
Mm. But, look, uh, I'll be home soon.
Mm. See you then.
Okay, kiss.
Dad.
[indistinct television chatter]
I wanna go home.
But Dad, you live here now. You know?
-It's Mother who lives here. -[sighs]
[television chatter continues]
-[Eliot] Mummy! -[snorts]
-Eliot! Eliot! -[Eliot] Mummy! Mummy!
Mummy's here now.
What happened?
I dreamt that Daddy buried you in the grass outside.
Oh, sweetheart.
I'm not in the lawn, I'm right here.
[hooting]
Lie down now.
[clears throat]
[exhales]
Let's sing together, okay?
[singing in Finnish]
[door knocking]
[Eliot in English] Who's knocking?
I don't know.
[knocking continues]
[whispers] They'll have to come back tomorrow.
[singing in Finnish]
[rain pattering]
-[Linda] Hey! -[Zlatan barks]
-Ah. -[items clattering]
[Linda] Hi.
What are you doing?
I did knock, but you didn't answer.
Came to say hi and to check in on Eliot.
-His nose and… -This late at night?
It's half eight.
Eliot's asleep, okay?
What, now?
He's five and goes to bed at 7:30.
Can I?
[door clicks, opens]
[Sara] Don't bring that thing in here I'm allergic, you know that.
That was just something Mum said.
What?
She lied.
-What? -[Zlatan barks]
Uh, Zlatan. Hey!
She made me promise that I wouldn't tell you,
so I never did.
That's why I didn't tell you.
-[Zlatan barks] -[Linda] Zlatan?
Where's he gone off to?
[slow pop music playing on radio]
[bottle top rattles]
Thanks. No having one?
-No. -Okay.
You can't have one.
[sighs] I can't have one.
You must be due very soon.
[Sara] In four weeks.
I have no kids of my own, but I do have Zlatan.
And Zlatan is a right handful.
So, there's always something.
So, yeah…
Can't you just sit down now?
[sighs]
I can't believe mum lied about me being allergic.
It was the only thing I wanted, to get a dog.
I just think she really didn't want one.
Typical of her to make an excuse, rather than telling the truth.
She had a lot on.
With a man constantly cheating and hiding booze around the house, you mean?
[inhales]
Uh, how are you doing though?
What's going on?
-You kidding? -No.
-Haven't seen you for ages. -At mum's funeral.
[inhales] It's not that I didn't want to come and see you, but I…
I just thought you never wanted to see me again.
Why do you think that?
Because you said,
"I never want to see you again."
It was a hard day, you know.
-Your dog bit the priest. -That wasn't Zlatan.
That dog was my first Zlatan.
The other Zlatan, I mean… [sighs]
-My other Zlatan-- -I think you should go.
Yeah, fine.
Look, I'm…
I'm sorry for just showing up here
without calling beforehand, but…
[sighs]
But there is another thing.
It's Dad.
He's not feeling well. Started forgetting things and…
[inhales] Sometimes he's normal.
-I thought you might like to see him soon. -Shh!
[Sara] Come.
[Zlatan whimpers]
You can sleep on the sofa so you don't wake him.
[emotional music playing]
[Helen] Where's Eliot?
-Um… -It's half past eight, we gotta go now.
He's already gone.
What?
We left early.
He really wanted to go with Linda and the dog.
With Linda?
He went with Linda?
Yeah. This morning he did.
But we were going to go.
[Helen] I just think it's so wonderful that we can all be here together.
We need each other, you know?
[dramatic music playing on TV]
-Yeah. -[Grandpa] Look. The evil dragon is there.
-[Helen] Yeah. -It isn't evil.
-So fantastic. -[Eliot] It's kind.
[Helen] Yes, every day. We're here every day.
-[Eliot] It's also the best. -Course.
-And it's called Red. -It's so sad.
-[Grandpa] Right, yeah. -[Helen] No, we're not leaving them.
You'll soon see, Grandpa.
Yeah, I understand.
Uh, can I ring you back?
Didn't we agree that I'd take him to preschool?
Every Wednesday, we said.
Yeah.
He doesn't know her.
I don't understand why you let a complete stranger take him.
She's not a complete stranger though, she's my big sister.
But Eliot has never met her before.
And you yourself have grown apart from her.
But I get it,
sibling relationships are often complex.
-I experience this as a psychologist. -Linda slept over here once.
And Eliot loves her dog.
Sara,
Eliot doesn't need someone who comes once in a while when it suits.
-He needs stability and security. -[Sara inhales]
He hasn't got a father now, has he?
That causes anxiety in a child.
You must see that you're in mourning, you can't do it all on your own.
In a month you'll have a new baby.
You can barely take care of the kid you've already got.
What did you say?
Did you say I can't take care of Eliot?
Honestly, Sara, do you ever talk about Daniél?
No.
My son is dead
and I didn't have the opportunity to bury him whole.
He wanted to be cremated and you said that it was okay,
provided he had a headstone.
But I want it to be all of my Daniél who's lying there.
All of him doesn't exist anymore.
Why are you so angry?
Do you not grieve at all?
Maybe that's what Eliot needs.
To see his mummy upset.
-[grunts] -[yelps] Ah!
I am here 'cause I threw a mobile phone at my mother-in-law's head.
-[attendee 1] Hm? -[attendee 2] She get hurt?
Two stitches.
She says I'm often angry.
Mm.
That I'm not facing my grief.
There are a number of different ways to grieve.
-I think everyone here agrees. -[attendee 2] Yes.
Grief is love that has become lost.
[scoffs]
But I don't see why we have to sit here and talk about it all.
It doesn't matter. They're still gone, aren't they?
It's not like… they're… gonna come back, you know? So, all of this is useless.
[attendee 2] I had my Rickard for four years.
And they were the happiest years of my life.
We were always together. Inseparable.
And when they called me and said that he was dead,
my legs buckled beneath me.
I just stopped… doing things.
Sat alone every weekend,
even at Christmas.
One day my little brother was standing in the garden.
I asked him to go,
but he wouldn't.
I screamed at him to go to hell.
And then he went. He's never come back.
I don't know why I care but…
[sighs]
[poignant music playing]
[sniffs]
[Zlatan barks]
[Eliot] I'm coming to get you. I'm going to get you.
-[Linda] Get the ball! -I'm coming to get you.
Pass the ball. I want it, I want it.
-I want it. I want it. -[Eliot] See ya tomorrow, the day after!
-The day after that, and after that. -Drop it. Drop it.
[chuckles] If Mummy says it's okay.
Linda?
Hey!
[Linda] Sorry.
What for?`
I was just worried that I did something wrong again.
D'you think that you'd like to move in with us?
And help me out a bit
until… um…
And after too. Only if you want to.
So, uh… So, you would like me to stay, um…
with you for a while?
[Sara] Yes.
Stay with me and Eliot.
Yeah, and the baby too. Yeah?
-And Zlatan. -[Zlatan huffs]
Yeah.
[meditative music playing]
[exhales]
I can call you every day.
[Jasse sighs indignantly]
[exhales]
Don't you touch me now.
[Linda] Come on, Zlatan.
-[Linda] Bye. -[door closes]
[Jasse] Linda.
Need any help?
No, we're okay.
-Come. -Oh, it's ringing.
Hello?
No, she's leaving.
I feel so alone.
How nice of you to ask how I'm doing.
I have fought and fought and fought for us to have a good time together.
It doesn't feel like she's investing as much in our relationship as I am.
It hurts me. It's agony.
I love her so much!
[Linda] Mm-hmm.
[bowl scrapes loudly]
[Zlatan rumbles]
[Helen] It's always nice with some water.
This is really good.
-It's take-away. -Tastes like anus.
[sighs] Eliot.
I've told him he can't say "shit."
[both laugh]
[Grandpa] So, Linda,
what do you do for work?
I won the lotto,
-What? -What?
Hm.
Two years ago.
548,000 kronor.
[Grandpa] Well, uh, that must have been nice, yeah?
Yeah.
[Grandpa] We all follow our own path in life.
But you had a job before you won the lottery, right?
I worked at a retirement home.
And I gather you're still in, uh, contact with your father?
[cutlery clatters]
Yeah.
But I only visit him sometimes.
I go because he's not well.
Wrecked his head with drink.
[Eliot] Who?
-[Helen] Your grandad. -I have a grandad?
No.
That really was very good.
[Eliot] How did his head break?
Alcohol, darling.
Helen.
You're making a mistake now, Sara.
[Sara sighs]
She lives here now.
I can take that, I know where it goes.
[Helen grunts]
[pensive music playing]
[Eliot] Mummy, why have I never met my grandad?
[Sara] Cause he doesn't want to see me.
When I was your age I used to sit on the swing and wait for him.
But he never came.
[Eliot] I'd like to see him one day.
Hm.
[sighs]
[Linda] Hey!
Hey. [exhales]
I can't do this.
To give Eliot a happy childhood…
I have to be
Mum and Dad.
And soon…
There'll be two kids I have to succeed with.
[sighs]
I can't do it.
[Linda] Come.
[hopeful music playing]
So, come.
You're wearing Daniél's shirt.
Sorry.
-All my clothes were… -It's okay.
dirty.
[Linda and Eliot singing in Finnish]
Will Zlatan die?
-Yeah. -Will you die?
Mm-hmm. Um, but not until I'm, like,
a hundred.
Just the same as Zlatan.
Yeah, exactly.
I like you, Uncle Linda.
[Linda] I like you too.
Are these pills new, Dad?
[Dad] Is it three o'clock yet?
[Linda] It's quarter to.
Are these new, then?
[Dad plays guitar solo]
At three o'clock there's…
cake and coffee in the dining room.
[Linda] We don't normally go, Dad.
Brought you some of my own.
But it's not three yet.
No.
[chuckles]
What's funny?
Why'd you put strawberries in there?
Uh…
They taste good.
Okay.
I do know that she's angry with me, I do.
Your… little sister.
[melancholy music playing]
Strawberries are quite good actually.
[Dad] What?
Oh no.
[church bells chime]
[Eliot] Grandma!
[chuckles] Hey, darling.
[sobs]
Hi there.
-Hi, love. -Hi.
Hi.
Is my dad there?
Yeah, yeah, his ashes are in there.
"The world's best father."
"Sara's husband,
and our darling son."
Isn't that what we agreed upon?
Yeah, it's good, Helen. Very good.
Is it my turn now?
Yeah.
Here's a torch so you won't be scared of the dark.
Here is a drawing of you, and me and Mummy.
And Uncle Linda,
and Zlatan.
And Grandma and Grandpa.
[poignant music playing]
And here's
a banana if you're hungry.
[Eliot] Fifty-one, seven, eight…
[Sara] Helen competes for who's grieving the most.
[Eliot] …one hundred!
-Hm? -[Eliot] Seven, eight, ten.
Thirteen, fifteen.
Sixty-three, seventy.
Eighty-nine.
[Eliot] Now it's one.
No, one plus one,
plus one.
[Eliot]Three.
Will be as good with three legs.
[door knocking]
[tapping on window]
[Jasse] Linda, I've rang you a thousand times.
I've lost my keys.
[Linda] Um…
This is Jasse.
And this is Sara,
my little sister.
Hi.
And you are…
-You not told her about me? -Sure.
Um,
he lives at my place.
And is my
boyfriend.
We've been together four years.
Yep.
Apart from when you lived with that girl from yoga.
But mentally I was together with you.
Mm. You were.
You can be physically with someone and send mental energy to someone else.
But can you?
Yeah. you can.
[Jasse] But it wasn't easy for me.
Linda.
You coming home?
I don't feel good being alone.
-[Sara] Uh, how old is he? -I'll be 39 in two weeks.
In two weeks.
Uh, you can take my keys… with you.
Here.
So…
Do you need money as well?
You give him money?
[Jasse] Can I borrow 2000?
Of course.
It's for a course I'd like to go on.
It's for people who have been hurt by love.
Called Wounded Warriors.
Wounded Warriors?
Sara.
Yeah?
Hm…
Okay.
Oh my God.
So much negative energy.
[Linda] She's just buried her husband.
[Jasse] Could still try to be nice.
I miss you.
I miss you too.
[Jasse] Are you coming home soon?
Yes, soon.
As soon as the baby arrives.
Mm…
[Sara exhales]
Who you messaging?
Uh, Jasse, but…
He is… very into oral sex.
I mean, giving it.
I think he learned it on some course or something. He…
He lies there,
and when he's done,
he looks up like that.
Like he wants to be praised or something.
And I think he looks like… um,
a dog at his water bowl.
But he's very caring and kind.
It was a…
bad day today.
I think he, um…
He's great.
Why do you always do that?
Make excuses for people?
Not all people are nice, and it's okay not to like someone.
But I do like him. [scoffs]
[scoffs] But that's what I mean, and you're a fool.
But, surely there are people that you like too?
Uh, you like… You adore Eliot, don't you?
But that's not the same thing at all.
He's my boy. You love them even if you hate them.
Okay, but, um…
Daniél?
You loved Daniél.
It wasn't
planned to get pregnant with Eliot.
And Daniél
didn't want a child. Well, not then.
Know what he said when I told him?
"This is the worst thing you could ever say to me."
[emotional music playing]
And even though he regretted saying that…
Uh…
Well, we gave each other a life that, um, neither of us wanted.
[Sara sighs]
-You're angry with me. -What?
You're angry with me.
But I'm here now for you.
To help you.
With Eliot and anything…
else that you need.
I'm here,
but you really must stop being so angry with me.
-[grunts] -Hey!
You're my big sister.
Yeah, but you can't hit!
Hey!
-[grunts] -Hey!
And you shouldn't hit!
[Linda] Stop it!
Stop it!
-Stop! -No, you stop.
[Sara grunts]
[both grunt]
No.
[Linda] Stop it now!
[panting] You could have stayed with me and Mum
when they divorced, but you didn't.
[inhales] You went with him.
You were older and you could make that choice.
I was ten years old and was really lonely!
If I hadn't moved in with him, he would have been all on his own.
[Sara] So what?
He was an adult, and he didn't give a shit.
Everything was his fault and he screwed it all up.
You'll never, ever be able to understand this,
but sometimes people are just arseholes, and you have no choice but to go!
No, I didn't mean now.
[sighs]
Here.
[exhales]
Dad had it,
but I thought you should have it instead.
[emotional music playing]
[exhales] He does care, Sara.
And I think you should see him, before it's too late.
I swear you can trust me.
[sniffs]
Sara?
Good night.
[hopeful music playing]
Can he pass as a robot if I roll him in it?
Yeah.
I'd forgotten it's Halloween at the nursery.
I can take him in if you want.
No, I'll do it.
Oh.
[indistinct TV chatter]
Actually, I was going to ask you if you could collect him today for me.
Cause I have to go see the midwife and nursery closes at two o'clock today.
I can drop him off and pick him up.
[Sara] Okay.
Or I could just call and say that he's sick today.
-I'm ready. -[Sara gasps]
Oh.
You look great.
-Are you… -I'm Uncle Linda.
-[Sara] With a moustache? -Yeah.
-[laughs] -[Eliot] Trick or treat?
We've got no sweeties.
Then it's a trick.
-No. No. No! [laughs] -Yeah. Yeah.
[both laugh]
Are you being naughty? Hey, you're such a naughty boy. You're naughty.
[both laughing]
["Do För Mig (Friluftscenen)"] by Lill Lindfors playing]
-[Sara] Bye, honey. -[Eliot] Bye-bye.
-[Linda] See ya! -[Sara] Bye.
[Eliot] That turtle.
-[Linda] Yeah? -They are actually slow.
But in the movie, it is very fast.
[Linda] Is it this fast?
[Eliot] Let's race!
[Linda] Ah!
[music stops]
-Oh. -I'll take that.
So…
-Can you lie down? -Mm.
-[sighs] -[midwife] There.
Does it feel okay?
Yeah.
Let's see how the little one's doing.
Mm-hmm.
[midwife] Or should I say her?
-You know it's a girl, right? -Yeah.
[midwife] Okay.
-Pull up your top. -Yeah.
So, may I?
Just gonna feel for the head.
Breathe in…
And breathe out.
And there we have it.
Okay. Now let's see if we can find the heart.
It'll be a bit cold.
Let me feel.
Just searching.
-[heartbeat pounding] -[midwife] Ah.
There. Here it is.
Do you hear?
Mm.
Don't worry. Sounds like she's very healthy in there.
Okay?
[sobs]
[midwife] Here. There you go.
[sobs] Sorry. Sorry.
Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry.
I'd forgotten you were in there.
I'm sorry. [sobs]
[upbeat guitar music playing]
Hello?
Hi.
Where's Linda?
[Eliot] She's gone.
Hey, honey.
-Hey. -She didn't come.
What's wrong? Where's Linda?
Eliot, darling.
I'm just gonna go and talk to Mummy.
I won't be long.
I won't go anywhere.
-Okay. -Come.
[quietly] Linda never showed up.
He thought she was dead.
The preschool couldn't get hold of you, so they called me instead.
I warned you.
Linda's irresponsible and she can't be relied upon.
I've comforted him for an hour.
Things like this leave deep scars.
I often see this in my work as a psychologist.
[Linda] Hi.
I, uh… I tried calling, but you didn't answer.
[Sara] Come.
Where were you?
[Linda] I'm sorry.
I was with Dad.
I was only popping in quickly to say hi, and then when I got there, he'd… gone.
So…
We looked everywhere.
And I was…
scared that, well, something might have happened to him.
'Cause he can just walk out of that place.
But then, we found him.
So, he's all right, he's okay, so…
Eliot thought you were dead.
I'm not though.
I'll go in and speak to him.
[Sara grunts]
I just want to go in and tell him that I'm not dead.
Just go.
Helen was right. This is a mistake.
Little One.
Eliot can't go through life thinking that people have died,
just because they're a couple of minutes late.
But people do die. They die!
They abandon you. You can't trust anyone.
Everyone lets you down and you have to do everything yourself.
You swore that you would be right here for me, me and Eliot!
You know you promised me.
Then you chose him! And now you chose him over me again!
[Sara grunts]
[grunts]
[poignant music playing]
[inhales]
[Sara singing in Finnish]
[Eliot] Mummy?
[Sara] Mm?
Where is Uncle Linda?
[Sara] She's sleeping at her home now.
With Zlatan?
[Sara] With Zlatan.
Let's take that now.
No. Uh-uh.
No.
It's not a good idea to sleep with it.
[Eliot] No.
I miss Uncle Linda.
["Kom Igen" by Lill Lindfors playing]
[vacuum rumbles]
[Eliot barking]
[barking continues]
[Helen barking]
Straight line.
-Mm-hmm. -Not straight.
Straight. Straight.
[Zlatan barking]
[grunts] What's he doing?
Zlatan!
-[mobile phone rings] -[music halts]
Hello?
[Helen] Hi, this is Helen Garcia.
Have you… Have you talked to Sara?
Do you know where she is?
-Uh, no, I don't know where she is. -Oh, uh…
Do you have any idea of where she might be?
-No, we haven't spoken since we-- -Oh, never mind.
-All right. -Okay.
-Bye. -Mm. Bye.
-Bye now. -[call disconnects]
[door creaks open]
-[Helen] What are you doing here? -Hi!
We're just going out for a walk.
Sara went into labour last night.
-Oh. -She saw the midwife this morning.
She was…
four centimetres dilated.
-[Linda] Okay. -So, she was admitted.
[sighs] They called from the ward and said that she'd disappeared.
I should've realised
that she wasn't doing well.
It's my fucking job.
[Helen sighs]
I'll have to take the car and look for her.
[sighs]
Where the hell are my keys?
-[keys jingle] -Here.
[sighs]
Uh, Zlatan can find her.
-Search Zlatan. -[Zlatan whimpers]
Zlatan, search.
Yeah. Where is Sara? Zlatan!
-You coming? -Yeah, course.
Can you keep… Can you keep your dog away?
Zlatan, lie down now.
-Lie down. Lie down! -[Zlatan whimpers]
What does he eat?
-Sorry. -[Helen] Hmm.
So, I can't stop thinking about Eliot.
I know I'm not the best big sister.
[Helen] You are.
I'm older, I should take care of Sara,
but I don't know how to do that.
But she knows, always has. She knows precisely what to do.
Always.
My psychologist says I've not been very helpful to you
in your process of finding your way back to each other.
And I may have come across as hostile.
-Your psychologist? -Yeah.
-Thought that's what you were. -Yeah.
It's part of our work.
-Okay. -After all, we're people.
He said it's important to have safe places and safe people in a crisis.
And that you're probably one of those.
Even though you haven't had contact since you were young.
[sighs] Sara!
-[Linda] Helen… -Sara!
-Helen? -[sighs]
I know where she might be. Turn right here.
[brakes screech]
-Helen] But why would she come here? -Look, we'll just check.
-[Helen] What, but why? -Zlatan. Heel. Heel.
-[Helen] Here? -We're just checking. Come on.
Thank goodness.
-[Linda] Here. -Yeah.
[painfully] Ah. [blows out]
Sara?
Are you swinging then?
[sniffs]
I can't do it. [sniffs]
Okay.
Come on. Let's get you back to the hospital.
Don't want to.
But…
But you are about to give birth.
[wearily] Mm-hmm.
Hey, your little girl is on the way.
I dreamt I gave birth to Daniél. [inhales]
-Mm. -[Sara inhales]
[inhales]
What if she looks like Daniél?
[exhales]
I thought that all newborns look like boiled potatoes.
[breathes erratically] What…
[strains]
[panting]
What if she turns out just like him?
Talks like him,
acts like him, says the same things.
[sniffs] Same as him.
I can't handle that.
Neither of us look like our parents, do we?
-[Sara] Yes, we do. -No.
You're nothing like Mum.
I didn't mean Mum.
[panting]
I'm just like… Dad!
[screams in pain]
Ooh!
[panting, sobbing]
Precisely like him.
Come now, Sara.
[inhales, exhales]
[Sara] I am just like him.
Just as selfish as him.
Intolerant.
And really bitter about life like him.
You're also kind and funny like him.
[inhales] I push people away same as him.
And now I'm alone just like him.
[panting]
But I'm not like Mum, am I?
You're kind.
[groans]
You're insecure and scared of conflict.
You got together with a man who treats you like shit.
[screams in pain]
No, you're nothing like Mum.
[breathing erratically]
It's okay.
I'm like Mum.
I liked our Mum.
[Sara grunts]
And I liked her too.
[panting, sobbing]
I miss her.
I do too.
Oh.
Okay…
[optimistic music playing]
[Sara grunts, groans]
-[Sara sighs, sobs] -It's all right. It's all right.
[Sara yelps]
There. It's all right.
-[midwife] Push, Sara. -Ah!
Three more and she'll be out.
-You're doing so well, Sara. -There's something wrong, I know it.
You're doing great, Sara. I can feel the head. You're nearly there.
[panting]
[monitor beeps]
-The alarm! -[nurse 1] Sounding it now.
[panting]
[midwife] Your baby's struggling. Her heart's not beating properly.
We need to get her out now.
[nurse 2] Okay. Come on.
-[midwife] Alarm! -[nurse 2] Come on.
-[midwife] Quickly now. -[monitor beeping rapidly]
[door opens]
Sonja?
Hi.
-[Linda] Why don't you sit, Helen? -No.
[Helen sighs]
[sighs]
I'm probably just a little nervous.
I'm scared.
And me.
I thought things couldn't get any worse.
After Daniél.
[emotional music playing]
But they have, though.
[exhales]
[Eliot] Grandma!
Eliot, hey.
She had an emergency Caesarean, but no news yet.
Oh.
-Where's Mummy? -[door opens]
[footsteps approaching]
Now you can come and meet your mum and daughter.
And little sister.
Come. Come, Eliot.
Linda, come.
-Whoops. -[baby cooing]
[Sara] God, she's so cute.
[baby cooing]
[door knocking]
Hello, little sister.
One, two, three, four, five, six,
eight,
nine.
Seven.
Six.
Six!
[Sara] Wanna hold her?
Really?
There you go.
[baby cooing]
Hi, sweetie.
I've missed you.
[Eliot] Me too.
She's lovely.
Yeah.
Thank you.
I must go and do something.
[door opens]
[door closes]
[Eliot[ Mummy?
Mm?
[door opens, closes]
[Jasse] Hey! Linda?
What's going on?
You can't be with someone physically,
and, at the same time, send mental energy to someone else.
What is it really?
You can't physically be with someone
and, at the same time, send your mental energy to someone else.
Take that out.
[inhales] I love you.
-This doesn't feel good for me. -Gonna touch you.
[Jasse] Huh?
[Jasse exclaims]
-Uh, Linda? -See ya!
Hey.
I know that you're gonna be angry now,
but I also know that
you'll be happy later.
Although, you might not be happy later, but…
What's going on?
Today's a good day.
[hopeful music playing]
Is that your little girl?
[Sara] Yes.
-Hey, little Sara. -Saga's her name.
I was only joking.
Hilarious.
[Saga cooing]
She…
looks like you, Little One.
[Linda] There, Dad.
Took a photo for you.
[Linda] Shall we have pizza?
No, you two…
get some rest.
[Linda] That's a good idea. I'll leave you this.
Thank you,
I'm sorry.
Yeah.
Come.
Linda!
[Linda] Dad, wait here.
I was wondering when you'll come home.
Home?
I mean here.
[bright music playing]
[Saga cooing]
[Sara chuckles]
She looks just like you.
[Sara] No, she doesn't.
She looks like a boiled potato.
[both chuckle]
["Kom Igen" by Lill Lindfors playing]
[music fades]